A · Soldier's · Life

I had a very good day. Many people called me. There are a few people whom I wished called me, but I am not going to let it get me down. My hubby and I went to an awesome German restaurant. The service was extremely slow (we were there for 3 hours) but the food was excellent. They were understaffed and there was a review in the paper this week for it so it was extremely packed (when we left there was a wait). I absolutely love the atmosphere and the food of course and I plan on applying there for a second job to save up some travel money for when we head over to Germany in the next few months. Well I better get some sleep...try to get my sleeping habit back on schedule. OUT and night!

So far I am having a great birthday! People are actually remembering that it is today! I have already received a good handful of calls. I feel loved. I have already shed my tears because it wasn't my grandmother who called me first as she always did. This is one day in the year that I always remember her and a few others whom I have lost contact with. Well Happy Birthday To Me! OUT!

I just weighed myself and I weigh 162.6 lbs. 4 lbs more that just a week ago! Being just 5'1'' and 162.6 lbs in the Army is a NO GO! I am going to go workout until I can no longer work out and try to loose 3,000 calories which equals 1 lb... one measly pound! OUT!

I just woke up from an amazing nap...I only went to work until lunch and had the rest of the day off plus the next four days because of my birthday being on Saturday and for the fact that I worked on the 23rd of December. The Army doesn't always suck I guess.

Well here goes nothing...my first live journal. I say "I Wish My New Year To Be" because I know that it already has not begun yet how I wish it would have. I have a horrible lack of will power. I say in my mind how I wish I were this way but in reality I am lazy, fat, and disgusted with myself. This world amazes me especially science and how our own bodies work. Why does it seem like our minds and our physical selves work separate from one another? Like I have seen already as being one of the most made resolutions I would like to loose weight, and with being in the military I need to or be chaptered out. I know what it is that I have to do, but when it comes to actually doing it I fail at ever attempting. I am surprised I am not heavier than I actually am. I am pathetic. I know if this were someone else's live journal I would be saying to myself "shut up and just do it". I know that I need to stop acting like a victim. I do not have much more to say other than this is a horrible first live journal entry. Have a Happy New Year all!